the bad gets ugly really fast.

so there i am in shock i have no idea what to say i'm put in the spot and i don't want to do to cheer him up. my mom will not let me go comfort him and i have him on the phone balling what was i supposed to do. i loved him so much and i couldn't get to him to comfort him. the next few days we are cleaning out his house and getting ready to sell it. i helped him clean and comforted him and i washed his clothes. i helped him pack. i knew that everything was changing. he now had no mother or father. we were going to live farther away from eachother. i helped him write his fathers funeral and then we were off to the new house- his uncle was a millionaire and he was taking him and his sister in to live with him. it was about 25 miles away now. they dropped everythign off and they took me home. tthere was so much silence in the car all i wanted to do was hold him. he next day we went to the funeral and gave his father our peace. and there was so much going on. he told me got his dad rifle and wanted to shoot himself in the head. a couple weeks later i notice a drastic change from the boy who i knew. he went from this shy boy who was hurt by the lost of his parents to this cocky selfish lost boy. we were in highschool now and this were changing all around me. we stuck it through and months passed and he became arrogant and self centered forcing me to do things i didn't want to. you know. sexual things. he became aggressive and manipulative and i was scared. i knew what he was doing wasn't right i just didn't know what to do about it. i just let him abuse me and use me. and he started to neglet me when i need to talk to him all he wanted was to skate and go out with his cousins friends. i didn't want him to because i got so used it just being him and i. I couldn't do anymore. I became resentful when he went out i went out too with my friends. i got carried away one day at a friends birthday party and kissed a boy during spin the bottle. i didnt tell FLOYD i just kept it to myself because i felt guilty and didnt want to loose him. but I grew tired again after a couple of months of the rejection and the way his family started to treat me. I started to notice other boys and started to talking to this one guy from chino hills that i liked alot and we were just friends. but somehow FLOYD Found out and came across my email somehow. he said he read it and knew i was talking to him.