i never finished...
about me and FLOYD things got bad really fast soon after his father died. I understand why now. In fact, I stopped writing in my diary after this because It made me realize all that I was holding on to the past rather then focusing on the future. its weird. i would have payed more attention to what was in front of me if i knew all along that my past is never going to fade away and its a stain in my life that i will never forget, but i chose to live on and move on, for the sake of my family and for happiness. I could on and on and on in detail of how horrible it got. I could tell you how painful it was. How I was so lost that I purposely tried to indulge myself in sexual activities to feel pain again so that I would never love myself again. thats how sick that relationship made me. I didn't want to be without him and if i was going to be without him I wanted to be completely free and let go. which is what i did. crazy it was either all or nothing. and i chose nothing. but ended up with so much more then what FLOYD could ever have given me. Out of the UGLY CAME THE BEAUTY.
28 apr 2010
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