Is it ever going to change?

I am done being surrounded by people who do not care. I am done feeling so alone. I am done feeling not good enough. I am not the nicest, kindest, most modest and sweetest girl in this universe. But nor am I a bad person who deserves to constantly feel like she’s not worth anyone’s time. I try my best every single day to put a smile on my face and convince myself that I’m feeling alright and that everything will be okay in the end. But almost every fucking night I cry myself to sleep because it all feels so damn hopeless. I sometimes feel like there is simply no place for me on this earth. This crazy, scary planet full of people who look, talk and behave like fucking robots. The worst part of it all is that no-one seems to care or even notice that I’m not feeling alright at all. I don’t blame anyone for the way I feel. Because I know that it has nothing to do with anyone or anything. It just has to do with me. Being the confused, frightened, insecure child I’ve always been. Maybe my mind is simply messed up. Maybe I’m just mad. I just don’t know how to figure it all out by myself… I’m just scared for the day that I will break down with no-one around to pick me up.