Three weeks later.........;~

Well..........

I haven't written for a quite a long time and I'm not gonna say that a lot has changed through this time, but some things have happend.

Well, almost 3 weeks have passed after my birthday and I started not to take everything very close to my hart. On monday I surprisingly got a call from my brother. That was an unknown number and when he said hello, my heart started beating too fast a I hadn't talked to him for 2 months.

He asked where I am, and said that would call me later. When I got home he called again and when heard where I am said ok and again hung down the phone. I couldn't get what was going on even when I opened the door and he was standing there. That really was a shock I would even say a good shock.

As he was again with his gf, we couldn't have any conversation, but he came up and kissed me. Without saying sorry, or I caouldn;t call you on your birthday. As if that had never happened.

I decided not to pay any attention to it, and when he later said that we have sant him for 160km from our home and are continuin our life I couldn't believe to my ears. What he expacted us to do. To sit and cry for him. We have done even that, but his behavior hadn't changed after that. So I was a little bit amazed. But what I was to do then. I just decided not to stick on that.

He went back, and I wasn't even ale to tell him how affended I was.

As K. Hadn't written to me since 23rd of November, I decided to break the ice and to write him myself. I can't surely say whetjer that's a good idea but I couldn't bear that anymore. Although our conversation which I satrted is not over yet, I've decided the following:

1. Not to tell him about any of my problems. I guess he already thinks that I'm an Problematic person.
2. If he would not write me in a perioud of 3 weeks, I promise not ot write him ever.

Promise officially. Well that's all. Bye