Hate my birthday:(

Hi....I know you'll think I'm crazy, but I hate my birthday which is gonna be tomorrow! Of course I like the fact that I'm gonna get a lot of presents and so on, but anyway I hate it!

Everything started last year when I decided to jump higher than I could and I invited my dance teacher to it! Surely he said thet he would come and as I was in love with him what was making me crazy, I was very excited.

He came with his friend and when I went downstairs to meet him, when I saw him with flowers my heart fell down to my knees and I thought that I'm gonna die that moment. But I survived....

During the party he asked me switch on a song he liked....Saying that he just wants to sit and to listen to it....I can't yet make myself listen to that song anymore. Though a year has already passed. Later he asked to make it louder, and after doing that when I wanted to stand straight he came up to me and without asking anything took my hands and we started dancing. My6 heart was beating to fast and I thought I would die. But I survived....again!

That day he kissed me for the first time. I thought that it was the best moment in my life (but I was too wrong)!!!!! After the party I walked with them and when saying goodbye he asked me to kiss me again....I was too ashamed as my bro was standing next to me, but how could I say NO when I loved him so much?

The most amazing later was that he behaved me the way it never happend, and what I was supposed to do?????? I was not able to do anything I had to do he same thing

My birthday starts in an hour....and I can't make myself forget about that fuching party, which I now consider the worst party in my life , a year ago that was the best thing that had ever happened to me!

Now I want this birthday to become for me my real birth!!!! I mean that I have almost forgotten him....And now I promise to keep my feelings the same whatever happens!!!!!

I can do it!

Bye!!!!!