living together apart: lat-relatie maar dan anders
~*~
We
were talking
about the past
this evening.
About the time
we were twenty years young
forty years ago.
She doesn't remember
many things from then,
but for me it seems like yesterday.
I am more living in the past,
while she is living in the present.
She was born in april '44 in Manchuria
and grew up in Japanese cities,
while I was born here, where we are living now,
in may '45.
We met in the desert near Gaza
and stayed together ever since then.
Living in "Yotapata"/Jodfat near Sachnin in Galil{ea}: Josephus 'hole in the ground' in 67 ...
Went hitchhiking through Turkey via Mersin
{Tarsus where ShaulPaul was born about 2000 years ago}.
We went from there to Adana and Mount Ararat {where Noahs Ark got stuck after the Flood as the Story goes}, onwards through Qazvin and Tehran, Herat, Kandahar, Kabul, Islamabad,
Lahore, Delhi and Calcutta.
For her all these memories are very vague by now,
while for me those memories are more clear than what happened in these past few years?
Those people we met, the smells and sounds, 'happenings' ...
She went to college in Osaka
while I was already 'tramping' from the middle of the 'sixties'.
Ein Geddi on the Dead Sea shore, Har El near Ramallah, Ruchama near Sderot.
Forty years slipped by like it was nothing:
yet filled with memories of all these twenty countries inbetween the Low Lands and the Far East:
I stuck to that track over and over again, while she travelled out and about to Hawai,
Tunesia, Algeria, European countries, South Africa & back again to Japan several times,
in the plane from Tokyo to Holland via Alaska exactly in those hours of 9/11!
I was worried like I never was before!
She still is going to her office
in the World Trade Center in Amsterdam every week,
while I remember these past 60 {600/6000} years as if they were [and are] still
'alive & kicking'?
What I absorbed since '45
I have been 'filling in' ever since then:
history seems somehow more real than what is happening now every day?
Anyway: how could you separate what is now
from what was THEN?!
We were talking about our past:
to me it seems like yesterday while she is living for tomorrow ...
We were born on opposite sides of the world and spent almost 40 years together in the Netherlands:
but our 'realities' are as much 'one' as they are
[and always will be]
totally different!
Maybe she would have wanted
to live a 'totally' different life, but I wouldn't want to change any part of it?
We are living together 'apart', this is not a LAT-
but a LTA-relation:
that's the way
it is.
And it's all right.
~@~

Asih, man, 81 jaar
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