words that can't be spoken...

I've work so hard to accomplished many things. Try my hardest to be the one my parent most proud of. But it turns out its not enough. when it comes to college, it makes me feel frustrated. Not that my grades and score couldn't get me in to any college. Of course it will. But my question is what exactly they want me to do? I study my ass off because i think there's always people who's better than me. But now they say "I STUDY TO MUCH?". I know myself i'm not as good as others that's why i need to try harder. And they think i could pass through any obstacle without trying hard. But frankly "NO". I know myself. I did the exam. I study. Even they have been through this before but hey century change things change and things get harder. It's tough. When they ask me questions they think they knew what's going on, but no they don't. they ask to understand and i tell them the answer turns out they still don't understand. they yelled and act barbarically to get the answer out of me. It's tiring. they said they don't pressure me at all but in fact I'm pressuring myself. But hey look they are the one who put all of those standards how they daughter would turn out to be. And i'm as the daughter try my best to reach those standards. while knowing my capabilities. so i tried my best to do it study my ass off. and yet its not good enough for them. They needed something they want and they want it now. Even they asked for my experience but yet they still think they idea is always the best. Sometime hearing those words from they mouth make me feel out of place again. like i don't know what to do. I'm tired of hearing those words like i don't know anything. I just don't want to say the truth like how they were. I felt its better off for me to be quiet. I'm sicked of being like this. Sick of what ever i say it just never right. Sometime things is best to just keep it to yourself. But some time it is overloaded!