Why'd you go?

Like things couldn't get any worse.

Why didn't you tell me? I thought we had this connection or something. I know I should've stayed in touch more, but you didn't either. And then just getting a message that you're gone, that you lost the well known cancer fight, just wrecked me. It broke me.

But let's not make it about me. How awful you must've felt. I hope they were all there for you and you didn't suffer.

I feel so guilty and so sorry. It should've been me. I should've been the one to die. You should've been allowed to live your life and continue your adventures all over the world.

I'm so sorry. I would trade places right now if we could. Like the old days. Trading places because no one could tell us apart. So sorry I cant made it to Canada. So sorry.