Een brief die ik nooit zou sturen
Hey,
I know we haven't seen each other and we haven't talked to each other in a while, but I want you to know that I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. And I want you to know that I miss you. No... I regret what happened or I want to see you again, just... I miss you. It's so strange to think that someone I knew so well, is now a total stranger to me. That sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you, not even a little... But that some days I feel myself overwhelmed too by all the thoughts about you... about all the memories we share. Most of the time, I try to let myself forget, because it is easier. But them, I find something, a photo, a gift, the stupid love letter we used to give each other, and the full weight of what's been lost crashes down on me. Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you again, but all of these feelings became empty thoughts.
When I look back now, I remember being in love isn't always what it seems, it's just so easy to forget that. But this isn't regret, we had our reasons for ending "it" and they are as valid as ever. But back at the start, we didn't need any reasons to fall in love, we just did. The reasons came at the end and everything since then had been about reasons, and that's good. It means that one day, I'll find someone I won't have to say goodbye to, but a part of me just misses loving someone and having them love you back. That's all. I guess what I am trying to say is: I hope things are good with you, I hope everything is great. I hope you've found a love that's all the things ours couldn't be. But just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons... and that you miss me... too.
I know we haven't seen each other and we haven't talked to each other in a while, but I want you to know that I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. And I want you to know that I miss you. No... I regret what happened or I want to see you again, just... I miss you. It's so strange to think that someone I knew so well, is now a total stranger to me. That sometimes I go entire days without thinking about you, not even a little... But that some days I feel myself overwhelmed too by all the thoughts about you... about all the memories we share. Most of the time, I try to let myself forget, because it is easier. But them, I find something, a photo, a gift, the stupid love letter we used to give each other, and the full weight of what's been lost crashes down on me. Part of me wants to see you again, to hold you again, to kiss you again, but all of these feelings became empty thoughts.
When I look back now, I remember being in love isn't always what it seems, it's just so easy to forget that. But this isn't regret, we had our reasons for ending "it" and they are as valid as ever. But back at the start, we didn't need any reasons to fall in love, we just did. The reasons came at the end and everything since then had been about reasons, and that's good. It means that one day, I'll find someone I won't have to say goodbye to, but a part of me just misses loving someone and having them love you back. That's all. I guess what I am trying to say is: I hope things are good with you, I hope everything is great. I hope you've found a love that's all the things ours couldn't be. But just a small part of me hopes that you still remember what it was like before all the reasons... and that you miss me... too.
03 jun 2019
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s1m0n
dinsdag 04 juni 2019 02:44
Mooi geschreven.
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intotdeauna
dinsdag 04 juni 2019 06:50
Very nicely written..
Though I trouble myself at times with memories too, it's hard for me still after all these years to let memories be memories. It's not that I want back what was, but the loss of contact has always felt like that person died. How I wish some contact, a closer look into the development of that person from a bit closer than objectively needed, yet further away than what was between her and me: that would have felt better for me.
It is true that, as long as we have been aware enough, that we've made choices along the way based on information we've had along the way. Sometimes the more important and detailed info is what we're missing when we decide; yet this is often how life works (un)fortunately.
For you I wish despite the sweet suffering at some times, that you still stand by your decision and that all in all you handled well back then and that you made the right choice truly, looking back at it now.
For me that's the true definition of success: stand by and be happy with the choices one has made in their life.
Take care
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Kirsten03
vrijdag 20 september 2019 16:25
Thank you!
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