Yester&DAY

Sometimes , i dunno whos right and whos wrong.
Yesterday one of my sisters got engaged . It doesnt sound bad but it was too bad for me and made me cry.
My sister whos bigger than the one who got engaged was out of feelings .
My mum didnt let her to get married from the one she wanted . She was sad because she saw her little sister getting engaged before her.

The only thing that i really hate about my mum that she loves MONEY. Im not sure if mum loves us because we are her childern or just because we are a source of money.

Before i sleep , i pray not to wake up because i fed up from all stupid moments that i had to live with my family.

My mum or my family doesnt love me . Im just an outsider that have money or will have money in the future .

I swear that i wish to know the real meaning of love with my mother and family. I dont know what does love mean but i do know one thing

"i will be waiting for an end like i imagined , where my life is full of an endless love"