New year 2010!;)

Hi....I haven't written since 2009 and now I have kinda some things to tell!

After my conversation to K. I was just not able to have a rest for a second, I was falling asleep only at 2 or maybe 3 o'clock at night and till now I need a sleep badly.

We celebrated New Year very calmly at home as usual, but as A. wasn't at home that was not too interesting. I can say that this year started from kinda bad happenings.

January 1st we spent at my uncles, 2nd we were at home and my friends had come to visit me! 3rd was almost the same as 2nd but in the evening I had to go to my relatives and on the way i had to meet my parents! when I saw them I saw that my mother was crying and I was veri anxious for them. As later turned out she was so excited because the commender of my bro had decided to make a present for my mom and to sent him to Yerevan. Actually I can;t yet understand why my mom was so excited. I know that she loves us too much, maybe that was the reason.

january 5th my brother came home, and what I saw was really very offending. He was so indifferent to his family that I just wanted to shake him and to make understand that we love him. That same day he came he just ran away to his gf:, and came home at 1 o'cklock at night. The sacond day he was talking till 5 then he congretulated Mom and went to his friend, then came home and again left it, coming back at 2. the third day he just disappeared the very moment he woke up and till 12 in the evening we havent seen his face.

Everytime we were talking to him he was just saying that he had decided what to do and we can't say anything to him, we have no right on that. I was so angree, I wasn't saying anithing just not to disappoint Mom.

On 8th he returned back, and we starting having our rest without him.

What about K. he came back on 6th at noght and wrote to me even though I was offline, asking how am I and what was going on.....No.....He's never gonna be mine.
Although Dad said that in summer he wants me to go to Ukrain to Simpherepol to our relatives abd I guess I'll be able to meet K. in Dnepr as the train from Kyiv to Simph is gong thorough Dnepr. And even if I'm not able to stay there for sometime I'll meet him at the train station......