Life sucks... end of story

So first off Derek is moving back to his home city because of issues with his dad, which I totally understand but I am going to miss him like crazy, we were talking more and I think almost ended up hanging out but then BAM he is leaving.. for good... I am never going to hear his voice again.. or see his perfect face... and things are even worse then that. Emily HAS gotten to be his friend ( I am sure partly by smearing me to him to get his trust) and despite her accusing me of being after him or obsessed she cuts him off whenever she sees us talking and pulls him away, AND is planning on moving her and her boyfriend up to his town.. oh but I am obsessed? BITCH I dont care if he is your friend and I dont care how you feel about him I JUST DONT WANT YOU TO GET IN THE WAY OF MY FUCKING FRIENDSHIP!!!!! But no she has to act like its some competition with how she talks down to me at work about the things he has told her and she has to get bitchy everytime I so much as say hi to him.. God what a stupid bitch I cant beleive I was ever her friend....

And the icing on the cake ( aside from also being written up and me and my husband losing hours at work) My sister is back to doing hard core drugs and drinking and my neices and nephews are once again left with a broken and useless rolemodel. I cant fix her and I cant take them, my parents are too old and broken (physically) to care for them ( ages 4, 6, 10, 16, and 17) but my sister is pissing away her responsibilites for a quick fix and It hurts to watch.. I am likely going to have to move back in with my parents into a bigger house to care for those kids... I am, at this point very thankful for Kevin.