its a lonely road when u know u walk alone

I thought i was strong. i thought i could take a step on my own. i thought i could reverse everything ive ever changed about myself. i started to change back and was instantly shunned and pushed over the edge. Its not just being alone its knowing that your doomed to walk this hellhole forever without so much as an occasional silent hello. why does our society demand perfection and as soon as you show one flaw you are instantly enemy number one? i dont get it. i didnt do anything. im to the point were ive locked myself away in a box and melted the key into a puddling goop of broken dreams. Im tired of being hit i know i dont talk and it pisses people off but why do they insist on hunting me down just to bring me down further? im already doing everything and anything to secure a future thats slipping away all to fast. and im going in for surgery to get a cancerous tumor off my thigh, calf, and arm what more can they add on to my stress levels? im really truly trying to put on a fake smile atleast i can hope that it will become a
natural smile. its a lonely road when you know you walk alone

fakesmiles, vrouw, 30 jaar

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• O 24 dec 2013 overcoming my phobia...hopefully
• O 16 dec 2013 just say it already
• O 10 dec 2013 lady bugs are the spawns of Satan -.-
• O 08 dec 2013 you gotta be freakin kidding me -,,-
• O 06 dec 2013 stay silent and trust no one...
• O 12 sep 2013 i hate u for making me ever miss u .-.
• O 10 sep 2013 ...if anyone asks im dead x.x
• O 09 sep 2013 its a lonely road when u know u walk alone
• O 01 aug 2013 no ends loose
• O 13 jul 2013 id give anything about right now
• O 08 jul 2013 new piercing! :)
• O 04 jul 2013 prayer of the unforgotten«3