A little bit more:)

So till now I can't understand what's wrong with me! I mean with guys. I can't get just one thing.....Why they're running away from me and try to to have as less conversations to me as possible.

I told you about the guy whom I'd been loving for two years. So I can't exactly say it was love or not... because I think that I haven't felt true love yet! As I'm sure that love is never unrequited! So I tried to do as much as I'm able to get closer to him, and by the time I thought that everything is going good. But when I went to Antalya with him....I understood that I'm an idiot who thought that she's able to do such things that she can not handle.

I can't say that his behavior differed to much of the one we had before but it was too painful as by going to Turkey I thought that he will tell me something! But as I saw he just wanted to show me that I mean nothing to him as I don't deserve anything.....and he was always with that holish woman whom I just hate. I'm interested only in one thing. How was se able to make him love her. As she had nothing what could attract normal man (I think so).

Later I flew to England to attend a seminar not knowing anyone there, and what I felt there made me understand that space and time (and of course other guy) are able to do everything!

When talking about that guy...I'll surely lie when saying that I liked him, or that I've felt something about him. But there was something that made me closer to him. Maybe it was the pain that I've been feeling for all that month.... I can't say... but I know that the things that I told him and the way I was talking to him was not the one I expected from me.

So till now I'm looking for that special someone who will understand my thoughts and my feelings