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'DESPITE 
THE HORRORS OF WAR, IT IS AT LEAST A BIG THING?
I mean to say that in it one is brought face to face with realities!
 The follies, selfishness, luxury and general pettiness of the vile commercial 
sort of existence led by nine-tenths of the people of the world in peacetime are replaced 
in war by a savagery that is at least more honest and outspoken. Look at it this way: in peacetime 
one just lives one's own little life, engaged in trivialities, worrying about one's own comfort, about money 
matters, and all that sort of thing - just living for one's own self? Whàt a sordid life it is! In war, on the other 
hand, even if you do get killed you only anticipate the inevitable by a few years in any case, and you have 
the satisfaction of knowing that you have 'pegged out' in the attempt to help your country? You have, in fact,
realised an ideal, which, as far as I can see, you very rarely do in ordinary life! The reason is that ordinary life 
runs on a commercial & selfish basis; if you want to 'get on', as the saying is, you can't keep your hands clean. 
Personally, I often rejoice that the War has come my way. It has made me realize what a petty thing life is 
and I think that the War has given to everyone a chance to 'get out of himself', as I might say... 
Certainly, speaking for myself, I can say that I have never in all my life experienced 
such a wild exhilaration as on the commencement
of a last stunt, like the last April one 
for example. The excitement 
for the last half-hour 
or so before it 
is like nothing
on earth.'