Why Me?

It always seems like he's staring at me. Or maybe just looking for a way to lower me back into his life. I don't know. Maybe he's just thinking about things. He probably thinks I'm insane. Insane enough to hate me. I mean what's to hate? I did nothing to him. I wish that we could reverse and I wish he didn't use me. I actually think I'm in love because I can never stop thinking about him. I don't know what to say, and If I do it's always something stupid! I just want him to be happy. I want to be happy. I want us BOTH...to be happy. He doesnt reply to the messages and if he does, then they are probably in his mind somewhere. Idk what to do. I dont know if he wants me, or he just wants to torture me. But, I miss him. I really do. I may say I hate him but I love him.