The beginning

How come when I'm so positive, something or someone's are always there to bring the negative?
I'd like to see it as a challenge, see if you can keep up the good even when there's so much bad.
But why, even when my mood is still good my tummy just turns around and makes me feel so dizzy?
Don't take me wrong, I'm so lucky; I have a great family and supportive friends

But like today, I'll start at the beginning like I said;
I worked at a great salon, I'm a hairdresser and the girls who worked there were amazing
Liked them so much, they were like friends. We could tell each other everything, and we did
I worked there for 2 days a week, but when someone's on vacation.. I'm the back up, I'm just there all week to fill in.
Melissa, one of the girls was on vacation for 2 weeks so I stepped in.
Crissy and I were working our asses of because it was just us three (Us including the boss) and all of a sudden he wanted to talk to me… I sincerely had no clue what about…
He told me we should make an end to my working years. I shocked, didn't know what to say.
Definitely didn't see that one coming. My tummy just turned around.
I had one month to find another job and leave, there was already someone to replace me; a 16 year old girl.
Did I say girl, I mean a child. Ofcourse I hated her for stepping in my place, even she couldn't do anything about that.

So, I still had to work the last month. I just did what I had to do, my best. Make him see what he's missing.
And he did, he regretted for saying goodbye to me so badly. He apologized several times, and said it was the worst idea ever for letting me go. I felt sorry for him, and said if he ever needed me he could just call.

The kid (girl) had to work one month, until he could fire her. I had to wait for that, and then I could go back.
Wondering what was the best decision, I figured out coming back was. I loved working there so much, and it's just for one year. Why not come back?

Today he asked me to come over, to discuss the options. I sat for one and a half hour before he could say he couldn't let her go and he felt sorry for her. So I could call him this Tuesday for a reference and let him know if I needed anything else. It made me so sad and angry at the same time, why let me wait for that? It easily switch my mood from extremely happy to so intensely sad.

And now I keep wondering what is best to do when you feel so sad, but wanna be so positive?
I mean, there's no reason to be so sad; I found another job, monday I have a interview for a year college in London. What's there to complain about? Nothing right? Writing helps, maybe I should keep up with it.

That's it for today. At least, for now...