The beginning

Hello,

It's me, a 18 year old girl, who doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. A year ago, I felt amazing. I had a lot of friends in high school and I really liked everybody. At this moment, my life is not as much fun anymore. I am losing my best friend, and I don't feel like myself anymore. I use to feel pretty, happy and full of energy! After the holidays I gained a bit of weight, and this was not good for my selfesteem. I am constantly busy with school, work, sports and when I do have time for myself, I just feel lonely and miss the times where I would have lots of friends. I still talk to a few people from high school, but everybody has moved away or is focussed on other things. My best friend is becoming greater friends with somebody else. I can see her become a different person, and that hurts.

Because of all these emotions in my head, I decided to start talking about it. I don't show my feelings anymore, which causes many fights with my parents, well father and stephmom. They don't know how I feel and I don't know or don't want to open up to them. My goal is to feel happy and pretty again. I want to feel like somone with discipline and grace and not feel so sad and depressed all the time.

Kisses and hugs from me