my feelings

best dairy,

the last days i am feeling sad, i am always thinking to go a way from home, but i don't have any money.
i don't think killing your self is a good way cuz i want to have my second life, but i don't want this life.
it's been a day since I cut myself.
my boyfriend looks at my arm and just at his face I can see that he is really afraid of it, afraid of me cutting more and deeper
we where sitting in the park i was hugging him, he asked for my hand so he could see my arm.
when i am alone and look at my scars i want to cut more...
i am so tired of being like this it has been a year since I felt really happy
I hope to see him in the evening and then I want him to hug me and tell i am gone be fine.

i hope you liked it and i am sorry if my English is not that good xx