him

when i want to fall in sleep its him where i think about,
like his smile
his laugh
his eyes
his warm chest
his tiny nose xD
his warm hugs
and every moring, waking up with the same dream i fall in sleep with.

but the hardest thing is that, when he is alone with his brother, his is always almost everyday drunk.
so i exantly say to myself this :

i just woke up from a fairytale, bought the dream but didnt read the small details.
every ( dream ) mistake that i have every day made, make me who i am today. i exanly a survivor