dead lullabys..

The darkness thickens my heart aches for the torture to be over.
"Just hang in a little longer" the voices sing mennansingly.
your words were cold and so were mine, how could this of happend? What happened to us?
The sun shows its glory momentarily, were smiling holding hands siting in the flowers concealed on a hill.
the world is peaceful and makes perfect sence.
You made my life full of wonder, you made me see lifes glory and beauty in no matter how bad the situation.
you gave my life meaning..
the illusion of the possibility of happiness disintergrates into the air.
I never left, it was all a dream..
The darkness encases my mind, im suffacating i cant take much longer of this.
You turned my once bright shining future into a desert wasteland, you wiped me off the face of your existance.
i gasp for air but all i hear is "just wait a little longer" melodously being sung.
Am i losing my mind? No its already been lost.
The sun flashes back into the open, you laid next to me and held my hand as we laid in the bed of your truck under the stars.
my heart flops a beat as i star in your eyes, we are soulmates and we will always be just we wont be always the same as we are now i guess..
one final breathe, one final sight.
The darkness returns as you appear from the shadows singing the same lullaby "if hevan and hell deciede that they both are satisfied, illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs; if theres no one that stands beside you when your soul embarks ill follow you into the dark.."
my heart finally stops, my lungs empty as i am finally at rest.
hevan is waiting on the otherside i can feel its prescence and grace.
I can hear your voice echoing through my mind singing me the dead lullaby.
My eyes fight to open as the crust slowly releases from each eyelash but to no avail.
i wipe the crusts from my eye, i never left.
I am still lying down in my bed with you still hugging my waist, it was all just a dream.
.....or is it?