break up

Hi guys,
My blog will be in English because I just feel safer talking English lol.

My boyfriend 'N' broke up with me 2 weeks ago, we were together for 15 months and I just love him so much. I already asked him if he could think about it again, he said he would but that he probably won't change his opinion. I really want him back. I don't only miss him as my boyfriend, I miss him as my best friend too. He was my best friend for almost 2 years. We told everything to each other. There really wasn't anything going on in my mind he didn't know about. Now we barely talk to each other, sometimes I try to begin a conversation but he really acts like a dick. This when he promised me that our friendship would stay, no matter what. I couldn't go to school for 2 days, just because I was laying in bed crying over him.

I'm really trying not to think about him and to move on, but our relationship was so amazing, I'm scared that with every boyfriend I will have from now I will have this missing feeling because it isn't 'N'. And that I will have this feeling 'N' was a better boyfriend then him.

I really don't know what to feel and what to do.