another disappointment yupp thats me
Got home last night and was in too much of a good mood.
that feeling remember?
yupp it was right...
i walked in to my room closed my door silently and as silently as i could got my guitar out of the case and started practicing for the new album. i played the first verse before my parents woke up and yelled at me to stop, so i did...for the moment. i made scott and harold a promise and i was gonna keep it. so i went outside sat beneathe the oak tree in our field and started to practice. i came back in to see my dad yelling at my mom trying to brand their war on who is enabeling me to do this and "do what i want" (when really i dont get to do jack shit in my life so doesnt make really that much sense to me :/ ) but later on that night it was MY fault that my mom said she had enough. long story short my dad smashed my guitar and burned it. i seriously cant stop crying im attempting my best to hold back the tears as i type this but its just not working. im terrified to see what the guys will say or think. this is what i get for puting myself out there. i deserve this i told myself that this was going to happen but no i dont want to listen. amazing you can make the person i was the amazingly confident and happy one dissapear withing a minute. congradulations dad im just like you i have no dreams and no more smiles to smile.
that feeling remember?
yupp it was right...
i walked in to my room closed my door silently and as silently as i could got my guitar out of the case and started practicing for the new album. i played the first verse before my parents woke up and yelled at me to stop, so i did...for the moment. i made scott and harold a promise and i was gonna keep it. so i went outside sat beneathe the oak tree in our field and started to practice. i came back in to see my dad yelling at my mom trying to brand their war on who is enabeling me to do this and "do what i want" (when really i dont get to do jack shit in my life so doesnt make really that much sense to me :/ ) but later on that night it was MY fault that my mom said she had enough. long story short my dad smashed my guitar and burned it. i seriously cant stop crying im attempting my best to hold back the tears as i type this but its just not working. im terrified to see what the guys will say or think. this is what i get for puting myself out there. i deserve this i told myself that this was going to happen but no i dont want to listen. amazing you can make the person i was the amazingly confident and happy one dissapear withing a minute. congradulations dad im just like you i have no dreams and no more smiles to smile.
06 jun 2013
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TheMask
donderdag 06 juni 2013 05:20
This is the first time I've ever read your diary, actually this entry is the first I've ever read, but anyway, your parents sound like pricks, smash a guitar and burn it? What is even achieved? All I have to say is that, I don't know your relationship with your parents, if they're always like this or not, but, while this may be cliche, time stops for no one, soon enough you won't have to deal with your parent's irrationality, you'll be free to play as much guitar as you want, but until then, just try not to let them win, and also, allow yourself to cry, it helps, it's a healthy release, don't hold back tears, let them flow, I'm sorry, I know I didn't help, but have a nice night/day.
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fakesmiles
donderdag 06 juni 2013 20:20
Its just another day in my hell hole of a family house. sorry for posting such a bad story its just i had to tell someone otherwise i was going to blow up on someone
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TheMask
vrijdag 07 juni 2013 02:11
Don't apologize, it's not a bad story, I'm glad you posted it, I enjoy having windows into other people's lives, and enjoy helping people, but that's kinda cliche and I haven't helped you at all, so, I don't know, I hope things get better for you, I'll be stalking your diary entries from now on, I don't know if that's comforting, creepy, or both, but just know ill always be listening when you're venting.
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fakesmiles
zaterdag 08 juni 2013 00:19
No it did help me and thank you for it
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