Angry

I don't know if its because my mom pressures me to keep my "family" but idk if I want to... Maybe this pregnancy is making my hormones go crazy, but I can't handle this anymore, it's like he truly is a kind nice respectful person, it's who he is ...but with me ONLY with me it's different, he says to me that its because he loves me so much that he could be himself, but i love him too and i dont lie i dont just yell at him when im mad im the same person with him that i am to other people, im real not fake,he seems to not want this as much as I do and every time I wanna say let's take a break, I think, for what? He's just gonna be back the next day, I think this is not how adults are suppose to act, I don't want to be depressed I don't want my baby to know what that feels like so early, I just want to be happy , just happy. I don't want to be angry all the time I don't want to be that angry go that calls him to come home only cause I know he's doing something that'll hurt us, I don't want this life that I'm envisioning in my future ....I just want to get on my diary and write something beautiful, something that people will read and wish they had