8-4-2013

i have a lot of pain and i just want it to stop... hate being single.. wanting more but not in a good enough space to date and i havent been for quite a few years ... don't know how to break the cycle...

dont know how to let go... i am in love with a man who doesn't want me.. or who doesn't love me.. but he also won't let me go....

aarrggghh says he is my friend..but i don't feel like he is my friend... i feellike he is a poser...

and i just wonder why he hasnt left my life totally....

if he did i would miss him and i would probably cry... i don't k ow but in the ed it will make me stronger and him being here is making me weak...