Feeling dead inside

It is that time again, the second cry of today the emptiness is indescribable.
I miss you I want to hate you but can't
the pain dominates me the silence kills me
multiple times a day I ask myself
Why me?
I can no longer it is too heavy
I didn't know from the beginning
what I was for you or if I meant something to you.
I only know that you broke my heart